no one understand me

Last night i dreamt that i am out of the earth and no long living in this world.....i feel so happy and keep smiling over there....=) feel no stress, no unhappiness , no mood swing..nothing but just smiles =)

However when my alarm rang this morning, i depressed again....all my smiles ran away....and all the stress and projects came back....then i realised that i am still alive which is i don want to be.......

Henry called me and tried to make me happier...the things he said make me feel so touch and almost cry out......a caring friend =)

i think something is wrong with me ...i feel all my friends are living far away from me...there are only few staying near me ..but they don undersatnd me ..maybe i don understand myself neither....i was being locked up by something, maybe is........

i forget how to walk on my own way....how to live on my own...i forget how to carry on with my life....maybe is because i was being locked up for too long.....too long....i forget everything about myself.......